my kids are making me think of sad things

[Wyntersdiary]

Hey everyone ...

i was never an emotional person so i never used to think about things like this but since having my son 2 years ago ( have also since had a daughter who is now 1) A lot of the time usually when im looking at them sleeping and seeing how cute they are i cry because it makes me think of all the neglected and abused children out there and i hate it.

I hate thinking about it.

Its happened again tonight, my son is sleeping beautifully next to me and i just start crying because im thinking about the ones who arnt safe.... kids like my little boy. im finding it hard being so emotional because im really not used to it.

i dont know what i hope to gain from writing this down but i feeel it helps.

Now that i have my own kids i see the news about other kids everywhere. i have done everything i can to not get the news in my sight but it still pops up in places i cant hide from and its always the ones about kids that standout. I have resulted to Closing my eyes every time i know what the headline is about to say because i know i cant handle it.

Ah op that's hard. It is awful to think of children that are neglected. My bil children were born around the same time as my DS and my heart used to break for them. Junkie dad, alcoholic mum, house absolutely mankey, I mean maggots in the kitchen, kids crawling about on a floor covered in car shit, no sheets or proper covers on the beds. Social services involved even before they were born because there were also 2 older children, and they still left the children in those conditions. I had to desensitize myself to it because there really was nothing any of us could do. I don't have any other advice accept try and put it to the back of your mind. Terrible things happen all over the world. You can't spend your life beating yourself up about it.

Thank you,

That sounds really horrible :( Those poor children.
Im moving house in 2 months and i am going to Foster teenagers because i want to at least help in some small way.

Im going to do just that though, i will use these tears as a push to make sure my kids are loved and grow up to be respectful lovely adults.

Going to try get some sleep and cuddle my baby boy :D

Thank You i am greatful that i have never seen any abuse first hand ... It truly is the worse thing in the world to me.

Goodnight

Well I hope you can get some rest. That's a lovely thing you are doing. It's something I've always thought about, but I will wait until my kids are older. Just remember it can be very stressful.

Thank you :) Yeah i figured it would haha Thankfully my husband is at home all the time with me so lots of help :D

I totally agree with you, I've always hated the stories I hear of neglected children in the news but since having my baby it's really heightened. I recently came across the news story of the boy who is a double amputee walking for charity and his legs were amputated due to abuse when he was a baby and I cried at the news story. How can anyone bring a baby into this world and do that to them?? I think hormones and your strong maternal instincts kick in and the thought of anything happening to my baby terrifies me!

Im the same :/

I am the same, I could have written your post actually.

If I’m honest- I wasn’t a very caring person before having DD. Now I’m a Mum and my perspective has completely changed.

I can’t watch certain movies, documentaries, I lie awake worrying at night sometimes about things that could happen to her. I struggle to read the news. When you are a parent everything cuts a little deeper.

That’s lovely what you’re doing. I think I’d like to foster one day when DD is older, or volunteer with children when I have more time. I’d also like to change career so I can help people more but I don’t know where to start really.