I'm not really sure what to do. Have a 7 month old ds who I love. Really don't like my old job (won't bore you with the issues but they are also very inflexible and would be difficult to go back to anwyay- we moved out of the city to countryside when pregnant with ds). We don't need my salary for mortgage or anything. We are lucky with dh job, although I like my independence and my own money as a general rule. My plan was not to go back to my job but get something more local and part time. I also thought we'd have the next baby quite soon so I'd have a couple of hectic years out with babies then find something interesting work wise when the youngest is about 2.
However, without going into too much detail, dh now has a great work opportunity which is intense new project for the next two years. He desperately wants to do it and with the whole covid situation it would be good to make sure his job and earning potential is better than ever. I agree with this. But this means he doesn't want another newborn until summer 2022. Tbh with covid and me having a emcs probably best to wait until then anyway.
But it also means I do have SO LONG at home and I feel a bit stuck :( I'm so broody despite all this and yet have 15 months before we can even ttc again. I want another baby especially as lockdown is so dull and I feel it would be nice to do all the hectic years first.
I also want to keep busy and intellectually stimulated to keep my mind off things, but it's so tough with ds not sure how I can.
I don't know how I'll manage to find a new p/t job with covid and I don't know about childcare either. Don't want to make this a covid thread but really not keen about putting him in nursery with covid and general worries about him. Really it makes a lot of sense for me to SAHP and the idea of my old job feels me with dread, but not sure I would cope mentally?
How do you decide and keep sane if you do? Especially as covid isn't going far!