Unhappy

[Cherry111]

Basically that, my purpose in life is to seemingly cook and pick shit up after my family. I am so unhappy right now. I hate my life and I don’t really like my family much either. They just do whatever they like and I just run around after everyone like a dick. I’m sick of it and I feel like I have no purpose in life other than looking after other people. I know I’m a martyr and feel like a victim and I don’t know how to change it or what to do. I am a complete people pleaser but it’s draining the life out of me and I can’t find any joy in anything at the moment. My 20 year old son totally takes me for granted, I heard a conversation with him and his Dad and he was like “oh thanks for this Dad, thanks for that” all he’s ever shown him is money. My partner is the thief of joy and my toddler is a demanding moan/whinger.
So... have I to exercise, have a bath, or go for a walk? Expect I can’t as I have no time to myself. Ideas?

Why can't dad look after the toddler?

Why can't the 19yo help around the house in exchange for the cash he gets from Dad?

You OP, go have a bath. Tell DH he is making dinner tomorrow and go on a massive walk for the whole afternoon tomorrow. On your own (or socially distanced with a mate)

That’s not okay OP. You need to talk to your partner and son about how you’re feeling

Dad probably can as he's off for the next couple days but it will all go tits up and I'll have to step in as usual. I don't want to go a walk. I want to sleep and no one speak to me. I want someone to do my dishes and the washing. I'm fed up parenting and worrying about everyone and what they need.