I feel like I'm a walking time bomb full of stress and unhappiness, since becoming a parent. (I don't dislike my kids or hate being a parent or regret anything) but I do find myself missing my old self (care free, very chilled out, full of energy, happy) compared to now (always feeling stressed, annoyed, unhappy, tired, even angry which is really unlike me)
I tried to go to counselling but didn't stick with it, tried to open up to my partner , try get some support, but he's not much help. Even to friends or family but all I get is "it will get easier", "no point stressing" "calm down, you will be fine" etc which doesn't really help.
I just find that I have little to no patience, I hate repeating myself (which is a daily thing), my mind is all over the place a lot of the time, and I just don't feel great. I feel like I'm trying hard to appear ok and somewhat happy. Even just when I try to sing along to my favourite song (because even thou I can't sing , it's what I enjoy doing) my kids start to shout over me and make noise, and that really makes me frustrated.
I don't want to keep feeling like this, any suggestions on what I can do, what could help?
This current time is even more difficult because there's gp to get a referral for counselling and I can't afford private sessions.
Any help or suggestions ? 😕