I have a 5 week old girl who I love so dearly but she is quite a fussy baby. She doesn’t sleep very well during the day and some nights she doesn’t either (and when she does I’m kept awake by a million things going through my head). My partner is working from home due to lockdown so is limited on how he can help. The first four weeks he was off and did most of the looking after as I had an emergency c section and suffered infections. Now this is the start of my second week kind of doing it all myself and I just feel I’m struggling to cope.
When she is awake she is fussy and I can’t seem to settle her and after a while I get so upset and I end up crying too! I end up feeling like I’m doing everything wrong and then my partner has to come to the rescue. In the evenings he ends up doing everything because I’m so worried she’s going to cry again as soon as I spend any time with her.
I hate myself for saying it but when she’s not asleep I find myself just praying she’ll go to sleep so I don’t have to worry.
I feel the lockdown has played a big part as we haven’t had a single break since she was born as she was born the day the lockdown was announced and I spend everyday wishing I had my mum to talk me through it all! I’m so terrified of the time my partner will have to go back to the office as I feel I can’t cope with her for more than a few hours.
I love her so so much but feel I am failing at being a good mum!
-sorry for the long post, I’m just hoping someone will tell me things will get better.