Sometimes get very angry with toddler
Hi all. DD is 15 months old and usually very happy and smiley. She has her grumpy/stroppy moments of course, and they’re getting more frequent as she gets closer to the dreaded terrible twos 😂 But most of the time she’s quite ‘easy’.
However, sometimes when she is being stroppy or overly irritable I find myself getting extremely irritated, to the point where, for the briefest of seconds, I want to hit her 
I never have and I never would, but for that brief second of white hot anger the urge is there. Whenever I feel this way I put her down and take a five minute breather and then all is fine, but then I feel awful afterwards!
It’s not every day, or even every week, just when she’s being especially testing. For example, the other day she had been whinging all day and then refused to eat her dinner, throwing it on the floor and screaming. I then tried give her some milk instead and she drank a bit but then spat it everywhere, and then threw the cup on the floor. I could feel myself getting really angry and even thought ‘I could really smack you right now!’. I didn’t of course, but the thought was there for the briefest moment
I don’t know if this is normal when parenting a toddler or wether I’ve got an anger problem. I would never have considered myself an angry person before I had kids, but now I can say that parenting has REALLY tested my patience! I don’t think the isolation of the lockdown has helped. My partner is a key worker working 12 hours 6/7 days a week, so it’s just me and DD 95% of the time. I am finding it very stressful, but I shouldn’t take it out on DD!
Has anyone else felt this way, or am I just a horrible person? 😫