I've name changed for this because I feel so shit about it.
DS is 3, today in fact.
His behaviour is just grinding me down. He has a very limited attention span, 5/10 mins at best. He will build things with toys but get angry if I try to help. He never wants to do any activities in the house like the types I've seen online for during lockdown (sorting balls by colours, crafts, making things, water games etc). He doesn't want to sit and watch a film. He changes his mind every 5 seconds as to what he wants to do. Today for example, inside shoes off, outside shoes on, back inside again, shoes off again, all in the space of about 2 mins. He will shout at me to 'sit down' and if I say no or don't do it, he just screams it repeatedly at me. His speech is slightly delayed so often I have no idea what he's screeching about. When he gets angry he tries to headbutt me, bite me and hit me. I've tried telling him off firmly and recently naughty step which worked to an extent in that he eventually sat on the step but wouldn't verbally say sorry.
On the plus side, he sleeps all night and he can be snuggly and cuddly when he wants to be, but I find the hard times outweigh the good.
His birthday today has been like every other day at the moment. It's been doubly hard not being able to break up the time at home by going somewhere for the day.
I find myself longing for bedtime most days. I don't know if this is just normal behaviour for a child his age or if there is something not right with him. Equally I worry that I'm doing something 'wrong' with my parenting.
People keep posting online about 'treasuring this time' at home with your kids and I honestly just feel like screaming. I love him to bits but I just don't enjoy spending time with him and I hate myself for it.
Not actually sure what I want from this post. Just to let off a bit of frustration I guess.