This may be long while I recount and explain. I appreciate anyone reading to the end and who can offer advice or support. Anything really, I'm desperate.
DD is only 20 months. She was a happy carefree baby until her 1st birthday. I have no clue what changed, but one morning she woke a changed child.
She used to be placid, shy, calm, smiley, always woke up from sleeps and naps happy and giggling.
One day after her morning nap, just after her 1st birthday she woke crying (for the first time). She had just been through 10 days of stomach bug projectile and diohrreah torture but still smiled.
So this was unusual.
Over the next couple weeks she just cried, then developed ticks (started making strange noises with her throat). Dr in a&e, after a load of tests told us it was behavioural and asked if we had heard of autism!!
Autism does run I'm my family. My older DS (21) has aspergers syndrome amongst others so that possibility isnt too far stretched.
At 20 months she self harms, makes strange noises, slaps herself on the head, freaks out if I go near her sometimes, if I accidentally touch her fork during dinner time, grimaces if I hold her baby sister near her, freaks if I touch her, or do anything one day that she isnt prepared for.
I am exhausted. She is my baby and is my everything, but I hide and cry all the time because I struggle to cope. She cries 80% of every day despite what we do together. Last night she didnt sleep and she screamed through her nap so I had to bring her back down stairs.
Is this autism? Is it something else? Is it going to get better? I read about pandora syndrome where kids with strep throat have a change in personality. Could it be this? My gp is shite, they dont care and I doubt they will properly test her.
I have brought up a child with aspergers syndrome so the show autism are familiar. She and flaps, it's getting worse.
She is a tie walker, shoes haavenf fixed this.
Her stimming is getting so much worse. She now stims going upstairs, where excited, while playing, while eating, while watching tv... every time. Alot of the time she deliberately hurts herself. This is the hardest.
I'm calling on all mums who have and are going through this if you can help me. I just want to cry all the time.