Ds1 is 6 months. Love him soooo much. He’s a restless little thing and won’t nap for longer than 30/40 mins at the mo. I worked in tv before starting maternity and for various reasons I can’t go back at the end (job I did do doesn’t exist anymore) so not sure what I’ll do re. Going back but I just wanted to have a moan really and I know I’m not alone in this. Very very grateful to have a perfect lovely little boy but goodness me....first babies are such hard work. I feel like my whole day is busy but I get nothing done. When I try to do something (e.g. had to phone various departments today to sort a tax issue) ds1 wouldn’t sleep longer than 30mins and wanted entertaining so had to play with him while trying to have a simple telephone conversation and write one email.
I’ve always been a hard worker, always had my plate full and thrives on being busy and loved work, LOVED it. God I miss it. I miss having something that’s just for me, I don’t want to sound ungrateful but it’s just the reality of parenting someone so little! I live very rurally so I have to drive half an hour to get anywhere and I’m reluctant to spend my statutory maternity allowance all on fuel, so I’m limited to seeing friends and family once or twice a week and going for local walks. Love where I live but my god sometimes id like to live in a town where the shops, soft play etc etc is a walkable journey. I hate to wish away this time as I know I won’t get it back but a big part of me looks forward to being beyond the weaning and immobile stage, yes I’m aware more challenges lie ahead once DS is able to move but at least then he can entertain himself a bit.. currently he will just flip onto his tummy and then scream and shout that he can’t move despite his best efforts. On a good day I feel productive as I manage to get housework done, have a happy baby, do food etc. On a bad day I literally feel like I’m just managing to do stuff til his bedtime.
Please oh please post your similar moans for me to read. Ds has just finished his 4th catnap spring off I go to fetch him to stop the crying 