Feel so alone. I'm losing. Please help.

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DH & I have been on and off constantly and seem to stay together for the sake for the children but I'm so confused and not sure I can do this anymore. He never has a good thing to say and blames me for everything.

He spends every evening and night along locked to himself with a movie or music and drinks and smokes, eats his dinner in his own time and goes to bed.

He shaves and his hair is all over the sink, he smokes and theres tobacco stained walls and his mess all over the house. I can't do this. I'm totally losing it.

Hi OP

I'm sorry you are feeling like this, it sounds like your DH is behaving really shitty. How old are the children? Do you have anyone close by to talk to? Have you been together long? Nobody deserves to feel like this

Hi Violet,

They're 2,3 and 7 years old. I do have people close by but I often feel unheard as they see me giving in and an old story sort of. We've been together 10 years. xx

Maybe just talk to him and tell him how you feel. If the relationship can't be fixed then I wouldn't personally stay together for the sake of your children. They can pick up on the fact you're unhappy. Separated families can also live a lovely happy life.
It's not nice feeling alone and unhappy so please don't suffer, tell him how you feel and if hes not willing to work on fixing it with you then end it. You deserve to be happy as well as your children