I have a 5 month old baby girl. I am married and my husband works full time.
I exclusively breastfed, but up until two months ago my baby would take a bottle if I needed to go somewhere for a couple of hours (which was very rare). She now refuses any other kind of feedimg method other than breast (bottles, syringe, cup). So i have been with her 24/7 for 2 months.
About a month or 2 ago I was becoming really upset every day that she was growing too fast and I was losing my baby. I would cry and feel this overwhelming urge to be with her.
But that seems to have passed. I feel detached and I don't know what i feel anymore. She is going through leap 5 at the moment and is also teething, so all day (or so it feels) she is shouting or crying or shrieking. Feeding has also become a nightmare and a battle 80% of the time. I think her mouth is sore so i spend 10 minutes trying to get her to latch, for her to come off and repeat. She is definitely hungry and she will eventually feed.
I just feel so drained and so guilty that i feel so detached. Is this normal? Am i just not cut out to be a Mum? Will it get better?
I do love her and ensure I tend to all her needs, but I can't understand why i feel so differently from two months ago. I feel like crying constantly (currently sat here sobbing).