Just that really. I have a 7 month old DS who’s been really unwell, he’s been in hospital. I was rubbish and cried while we were there which would have scared him so I feel bad about that. My DM who’s been helping me out tells me I’m not being compassionate enough, I’m doing my best, giving DS lots of cuddles now we’re home, doing calm things, not doing much else other than being with him but I’m still trying to stick to a vague routine which is what my DM doesn’t like. I just don’t feel good enough, even when I’m trying my hardest she criticises me. I’ve had a scary few days with DS being ill and whilst she’s been there to love him she’s a bit dismissive of me feeling sensitive and tired too as well as really guilty that my DS ended up in hospital in the first place, I feel like I should have realised how ill he was sooner. I’ve posted about her not respecting me as a parent before but it’s really getting to me now and I feel like this is the worst I’ve felt about it. I feel like such a crap parent and my DS deserves me to be better, more caring, more fun, more happy. I’m really experienced with children and thought I’d be a good parent but now I am a Mummy I feel awful, I’m so disappointed in myself. I feel so guilty. There’s no point to this, sorry for the pathetic post I just wanted to write it down.