This is a poem i wrote not long ago, i am a mother to two children and i am struggling with my mental health. I hope this helps anyone else who is feeling the same.
My life feels like one big black hole,
How do i find my way out?
Everything feels like its eating me up,
Where do i find the light?
No candles, no torches and no sun to shine
A heart that feels like its gone cold
Theres no hope to feel, no glass half full
A story thats already been told
The weight of the world is heavy on my mind,
And the rainbow has come to an end
How can i carry on going straight,
When all i keep finding is a bend
How can i have so much life left to live,
And feel like i could take my last breath?
How can i have so much love left to give,
And still be surrounded by death?
How can a future that iv not yet lived,
Already be such a burden?
How can i see any good that may be
When the enevitable seems so certain
These feelings and thoughts take over me
I still cant see a light
But then i see two small figures
Lit by candles in the night
As i squint my eyes i hear a sound
Two angels are singing to me
Their voices echo through my mind
I finally feel free
And as i go towards the light,
I turn my head and see
My angels, with tears running down their cheeks
And they are calling for me
And in this world of darkness,
Where there seems to be only one light
I realise that all along
I was never right.
My soul is lost, maybe for good
But i now know where i belong,
In my angels eyes, and arms and sight
They will keep me strong
I am them and they are me,
Together we are one.
They are what pulls me out of the darkness
They are the reason that i have not gone.
In this world full of pain and missery
They are my saving grace
Aslong as my angels are singing to me,
There is nothing that i can not face.
Thank you for reading.