Just dropped baby off at nursery....

[feelingsicknow]

...for his first full day. He is 11 months old. He's done a number of settling in sessions and overall went well. He is a confident little thing.

But dropping him off today was different. They've obviously got lots of kids to get through the doors and I didn't want to hold people up (in a few weeks it'll be me that's dropping and running for a train) so I feel like I didn't say goodbye to him properly and it was all a bit rushed. And I heard him crying as I left the room.

Oh god. I feel awful.

It’s so hard! It’s normal, you’re his mum, it would be weird if you didn’t feel like a part of you is missing.

It’s fine, it will be fine. They will take care of him, and you’ll go and collect him later. Are you going back to work? Enjoy the opportunity to do something different, make the most of that.

It’s hard!

It’s hard OP- my LO, who loves nursery has recently become very clingy and crying when I leave. But I constantly tell myself within 10mins of leaving she’s playing and having lots of fun with her friends.

Thank you. Yes, going back in three weeks. Wish I could do something nice but in the middle of house renovations so the place is a tip, the builders are in, and I have no money until I go back to work!

Me and DH will pick him up tonight. His next session is Thursday when I'm doing a Keep In Touch day at work after drop off so it'll be slightly harder as I'll need to look presentable (for the first time since he was born!)

The whole thing makes me feel so odd. I used to think of myself as quite an organised, 'together' person. Now I feel chaotic and totally lack confidence. I put shoes on DS this morning even though he NEVER wears them and isn't walking yet (cruising and climbing) because I thought the staff might judge me for not having shoes for him. My DH thinks I'm off my head.
I'm sure he will be fine today. Walking the dog at the moment then might go home for a cuppa

Keep yourself busy - and do something you wouldn’t be able to do if you had him with you (preferably something nice/fun not cleaning the house!)

And don’t put the shoes in next time - better for his feet not to wear them if he doesn’t need them. Neither of my DC wore shoes for the first few months at nursery - they didn’t own any as

... we’re both late

... we’re both late walkers so no point

Aargh! Hate the autocorrect on this phone - “were” obviously