I have a DD aged 4 months and I’ve just found out I’m pregnant again.
I couldn’t breastfeed DD despite 7 weeks of trying. I don’t like how the birth went and she was nearly 3 weeks overdue. I also have PND. DD had reflux which made her (and us) miserable and I have “mum issues”.
Assuming everything goes ok with the pregnancy, I plan to do things really differently with the next baby. Breastfeeding, baby wearing etc. I felt like such a failure for not breastfeeding and it’s made me have bad thoughts about DD like we are biologically inferior (I’m not saying people who can’t breastfeed are inferior at all just that it’s another thing that I can’t do, I’m shit at everything and DD has got my shit person genes)
I’m worried that if I’m able to breastfeed and if this baby is more chilled I will love them more than DD 
Help!
I should add that I do love her more than anything but I don’t think she has an attachment with me