DS is 4 weeks old and is currently EBF. Ostensibly it’s going well as he is putting on loads of weight (a whole pound in his first week), which the midwives said is unusual as most babies lose weight at first.
I had some problems getting the latch right at the beginning and found it extremely sore but thankfully that seems to have resolved itself, as I was told it would.
The problem is, I just...hate it. The frequency of it has taken me totally by surprise and wasn’t something I had even thought about before the birth. More than that, though, I just hate the sensation. He is a lovely baby but he is hungry all the time (not unusual I know) and he makes the most amazing noises when he feeds, honking and growling and clawing at my boobs with his little finger nails like a little gremlin. It’s kind of amusing during the day but terrifying at night, especially when he gets colicky and cries and writhes around, meaning I have to re-latch him over and over again.
I find myself dreading each feed (sometimes barely half an hour in between) and I usually climb into bed with my arms crossed over my boobs and curl up into the foetal position because I’m completely touched out and just don’t want to be touched anymore.
I’ve been to my local BF group which has been really helpful for the latch but all the ladies there talk about how much they love BF and I just cannot relate. The thought of doing it for a whole year or even another few months fills me with dread!
I know I’d be stupid to give up when it’s going so well for him but I just don’t think I can bear it!
Am I alone in this?!