Anxious about returning to work

[Alicia870]

Currently on mat leave with 1st baby and due to go back in 5 weeks time when she will be 8.5 months.

I've loved my mat leave, love just being mummy and love my time with her. I'm so nervous and anxious about going back to work and feel like I'm just constantly waiting for it all to end. I feel scared about how I'm going to juggle everything, I have a long commute a couple of days a week so I'm worried about not seeing her. I'm worried about the bond changing, about leaving her with someone else, about being expected to be great at two completely different roles. Not to mention also worries about fitting back into the workplace and forgetting all my skills.

It feels so overwhelming! Any advice would be so welcome

Are you going back full. Or. Part time

Part time, 4 full days a week but easing into it gradually with 2 days, then 3 then 4. I know I'm lucky that this is the case, but still just feel so anxious about this new phase and how I'm going to find it emotionally and also practically.
For example dd has a cold this week and last night I probably had about 3 hours sleep. I just can't imagine how I'm going to cope getting up at half 5 and doing a full days work on such little sleep