I'm tired and probably hugely peri-menopausal, I have also just started some low level antidepressants because even I have became sick of hearing myself moan all the time.
I moan about how tired I am. I moan about how much hard work my 3 dcs are (youngest is a toddler, ds2 has challenging behaviour and takes a lot of parenting). I moan about how much freedom others have in comparison (I have had my children later due to various reasons and a lot of my friends are finding things easier with their older children these days). In a nutshell, I am finding things quite hard but managing to juggle everything including scraping a bit of time for me (and neglecting various bits of non-essential housework).
I love my dcs and there are bits that I do enjoy...I've had a lovely time with my toddler today but now I am left feeling very tired (I am also very hormonal). It isn't all bad but I just seem to have climbed aboard a moaning waggon and I am still on it. I'm returning to see my GP shortly about the anti-depressants and various other minor health niggles. There isn't anyone in real life I can moan to, to get all of these moans out other than my poor dh (who is also tired etc.). No extended family and I daren't moan continually to my few good friends, who don't seem to moan as much as me. I could probably do with either counselling (but cannot really afford) or a moaning buddy who would put up with a good share of moaning. Irritable is probably the best way to describe my general mood, though I do try to make an effort when in company (I am a sahm). Anyone else, found themselves in a negative loop recently? I think it is something to do with having a very young child plus two others to constantly be responsible for and feeling tired/hormonal often I never used to moan so much!