My first child gets very ill very quickly and has done since he was a baby. He has ended up in hospital a few times now and each experience has terrified me. He has collapsed before and turned blue.
I seem to be much more laid back with the second child and handle the illnesses much better.
However, as he gets older, my reactions are now beginning to scare him when he's poorly. I start physically trembling, feel sick and repeatedly ask him if he's ok, to stand up, talk to me, etc etc.
He is still very poorly when he is poorly and spikes a very high temperature which is often impossible to bring down.
He is currently very unwell and being seen by the out of hours gp, my husband is with him and I am at home with DC2, but I am a trembling wreck. Every worst case scenario is rushing through my head and the guilt for not being there is excruciating.
I know this has been caused by his high susceptibility to illness and the way he deteriorates very quickly, but I need to get some control over myself as I am now frightening him every time he is ill. Unfortunately, he seems to be quietly ill for some time before we realise how poorly he is and has done this since he was a baby. He has even scared other health care professionals before now into thinking there is something very seriously wrong when he is ill quite a few times.
Despite this, how do I stay calm and in control in these situations? I am causing him so much anxiety now through my own anxiety. I just can not cope when he is ill.