Did you lose your shit too when your baby was small?

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To be honest just looking for reassurance I’m not the only one who regularly lost their shit quite spectacularly when they were navigating their way around life with a newborn - the time I was so pleased with myself for getting into town early, but then lost my car park token and had a complete meltdown (running around my car shouting WHERE IS IT???), I was crying, DD was crying, i don’t know what I would have done if a seriously kind lady hadn’t stopped to help out and call the car park security people while I sat crying on the back seat with a boob out sobbing I was a useless mum and my food shopping was being delivered in 20mins and I couldn’t get out of the car park (seriously Thankyou so much to that lady because I genuinely was in such a state) and the time DD was hysterically crying in the car to the point she threw up so I was pulled over weeping at the side of the road while holding her & a woman came out of her house to see what was going on - the times I would drive to nice parks which had lovely gardens with the intention of showing DD the flowers etc and she slept in the pram every time but would then go wild every time I put her back in the car seat and I felt such a bloody failure, like I couldn’t even take my baby for a bloody walk in the park without it being a performance, I feel so embarrassed admitting all of this and as I said am just looking for reassurance that it’s not just me that did these things?! Or is it?!

Oh please don't be hard on yourself. We have all been there. Parenthood is the hardest job going. And meltdowns are perfectly normal, especially in those early, sleep deprived days. The smallest thing can seem like the biggest deal.

I had a similar experience when DC1 was a baby...successfully managed a solo trip around the local shopping centre for the first time. Felt super proud of myself. Until it came to folding down the pram to go in the car. I could not do it, despite countless times practicing at home. I was a sobbing mess within minutes. Even rang my husband for 'help' despite him being miles away at work. I contemplated leaving it and just driving home but i managed it in the end...somehow. But i cried all the way home.

That's just one of the meltdowns i had in those early days.

It does get better, I promise.

I had total breakdowns pretty much every day when dd was under 6 months. It gets so much easier! Now I have a 5 yo who makes me laugh every day instead. (And no intention to have a second and go through newborn/breastfeeding hell again!!!). I found finding fellow miserable mum's really helped me, and avoiding the ones who seemed to actually be enjoying the experience! (I can face them again now but it took a while!)

DD is now almost 2 but I still remember all the times I would get hysterical about not actually that much when she was tiny and just wanted to make sure I wasn’t a lunatic and other people did this too! 😂
So true about the faffing around with the pram!!!! Every trip anywhere would be a complete performance with DD screaming the second I started the car engine, meaning by the time we arrived I was on the verge of tears (if I wasn’t crying already), the pram would never just collapse and I can remember one occasion where (feel embarrassed writing this) I threw one of the detachable wheels in a fury and then had to go and pick it back up under the gaze of a small queue of traffic