feel for you Mascara! [hugs].
SNAP-same situation for me tonight,well actually you sound like a kinder mummy than me.I feel evil/awful this week.Had a bad cold plus pmt and a pulled muscle in shoulder,so felt really crap.DD(5),supposed to be in bed by 7 too(and she's had a cough/cold-so even more need for sleep!).Been doing 3:30 to 7:00,every night on my own(husband late home!!).Been like jekyll and hide with her-slightest things she's done that i couldn't cope with,i end up shouting at her and threatning punishments-even give her a sad face for her chart without warning for something..then i pull myself back and apologise and explain it's because i'm not feeling well and i say i still love her and am her best friend.
All this week though she's not been going to sleep when she should-10 one night,9 tonight...i despair..think i get mad because i'm worried she's not going to cope with school.Anyway i was watching my all time favourite program for 1 hr-and she kept shouting "mummy,daddy,can't sleep,got tummy ache"-don't think she has tummy ache-been saying that as an excuse.I just kept shouting-"GO TO BED!!".Hoped my DH would sort her out.He was upstairs.But he didn't.
Think he believes more attention might carry on her sleep delaying behaviour.I end up giving her porridge,which seems to knock her out straight away,but not tonight!..i thought,he could have a point.Tried to set video up to tape program,but it wouldn't,so i just kept watching,hoping she'd fall asleep.In end she got really upset and i still ignored her and shouted "FOR GOODNESS SAKE, GO TO SLEEP!!..cue distraught crying..."mummy AND daddy are being grumpy with me!",so DH decided to get her some milk,went up and..you guessed..she'd fallen asleep.God i'm a cow!.How could i ignore her when i knew she was so upset...like i felt a huge resentment that she was taking up my night and spoiling my chance of watching the program!...maybe i was angry that she does this when i'm ill and any other time she's a regular 7pm sleeper,no trouble.I should of had more sympathy for her surely.Maybe,i'm resentful that iv'e had to cope alone,and i think when my DH is home,he should sort her out,why should it always be me?!.I also know,if you just read to her/sit with her e.t.c. ,you can be there all night,and it doesn't get her to sleep,and i worry that too much of us,might make her play up more.
Maybe she was overtired,and couldn't go to sleep(i faffed about and she wasn't in bed till 7:45?).She gets so hyper just before bed though and it's a battle to get her ready too every night (teeth e.t.c),she just doesn't listen and runs away and i just didn't have the patience to cope with that tonight.I said-go and get yourself ready for bed!..so i came away,so's not to give her an audience.Went back up though,and felt guilty,so i did a book,which delayed bedtime more.....oh come on someone shoot me!!!.
thanks for listening-if youv'e got any comments/advice feel free.Would appreciate it.Anyone else as nasty as me,when your'e feeling ill/pmt e.t.c./so unsympathetic and selfish?!
feel like i don't deserve DD sometimes.