Yesterday I was successful at interview and I have accepted (as yet informally) a really exciting new role.
I've worked part time since going back to work after maternity leave but this job will be full time. There isn't really any scope for negotiation on that and to be honest, they job is a public sector county wide role so even if they did agree to reduced hours the work load wouldn't change. I have reached a point having worked part time but struggled to keep to my hours that I would actually like to be paid for the work I do.
There are hundreds of threads on here and articles all over the internet about the advantages of part time work but please will you share with me some advantages of full time.
I'm lying awake at 4.30 am, panicking on the impact of this on my 2 DS, they are 6 and 7 and used to be being around after school a couple of days a week. I'm also panicking about holidays and just general logistics. I will also have an hour long commute.
The job itself is really exciting and a huge opportunity for me. I feel like I've 'treaded water' career wise since having the boys and this is my chance to really make a difference and will open lots of doors. I just feel so overwhelming guilty for putting what I want above the children.
My DP is supportive. He is their DF and is very hands on. He will be doing most of the breakfast club drop offs etc because I will have to leave earlier. My plan is to start early so I get home at a reasonable time - that won't be an issue. I feel very lucky to have had the time I have had with them.
So I guess is what I'm asking is for all your amazing 'I didn't fuck the kids' up stories about working full time and how it's all going to be ok. Any amazing tips on how to make this easier for them and me would also be hugely appreciated.
Thank you