Anxiety and two children

[EmmaLSmith]

Hi
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I have two children - my daughter is four and my son is 5 1/2 months. Since he was born I've suffered very bad anxiety and am currently having counselling to help with this.
I have had two fairly traumatic births - the first was a long labour resulting in a forceps delivery and the second an emergency c section. I just can't talk about either of the births without crying, still now.
I feel anxious about everything - from giving my two children both the attention they need to obsessing about my son's sleep. I guess I am looking for reassurance that other mums have felt this too. How did you cope with your negative thoughts and enjoy your children more, without worrying about the future?

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Hi
I’m in exactly the same position and my children are a similar age to yours. I, like you, worry about sharing my time, worry about sleep, worry about filling the day, worry about potential illness, worry about the housework. I could go on .....
I find I have to be really organised to get through the day. My husband keeps trying to tell me to calm down because I can’t change things but I find this difficult. I’ve got a mediation app on my phone but I don’t use it in case I can’t hear one of the children while they are asleep. My husband is usually in the same room!
I don’t have any advice really but I just wanted to let you know you’re not alone

Thank you. I do find focusing on my breathing is helping me. I’ve started a postnatal yoga class and this is helping me focus on being ‘in the moment’ more. I agree, being organised is the only way to feel in control and if things don’t go to plan it makes me feel more anxious. I’m trying to change my way of thinking to be more positive but it’s hard when you’re in the habit of always imagining the worst case scenario!