I returned to work a bit earlier than I planned (DD 10mo) because I got a job I really wanted. The job is good, my new boss is super, and there’s so much potential in it.
Trouble is I’m miserable. I miss my daughter all the time. I miss the time I had with her and even the kind of person I was with her. It was a really happy time and it ended really quickly. (And I feel ridiculously guilty because I had no qualms handing over my son to nursery when he was the same age...)
I know some of this must be hormones. I’m still feeding her and pumping at work is ridiculously hard - my hormones then ramp up at the weekend when I’m spending time with her. Some of it’s probably dealing with change and uncertainty - new job, new colleagues after a period of maternity etc.
Is there anything I can do to make this better? I’m crying too much and it’s boring.