so a little while back i had a positive pregnancy test, about three days later I had horrendous bleeding, confirmed by my doctor to be an early miscarriage, when i had my miscarriage i realised that although I wanted the baby I wasn't in the right place and I needed to move house, and let my daughter grow a little bit before i had another baby, obviously if my pregnancy would of continued I would of been thrilled and made it work regardless of what I realised after the miscarriage. I came to terms with the loss of the baby quickly and I didn't really have time to be upset as my one and half year old keeps me on my toes.
Since the miscarriage I've decided to go to university next September and move house when I start university. I only have my personal statement left to do, my partner is ready to have another baby whenever I am, as he said. Our best friends girlfriend has just fell pregnant and honestly I'm really struggling. The thought of watching her pregnancy and watching them have a baby when our due dates would of basically been the same is killing me. I want to abandon university and have another baby but I know it's not the right thing to do. My daughter is a pill baby so I'm panicking about getting pregnant at university, what do you even do if you get pregnant at university ?
Please can no one be too harsh, I'm feeling quite fragile at the moment.
My head is a complete mess and i just needed to vent.