Hello all. Not sure how to even begin this as it all seems so overwhelming at the moment. I’m very happily married with 2 gorgeous kids who are 3.5 and 20 months respectively. We talked about having a third for a while before deciding to go for it a couple of months ago. Well, to cut a long story short, I’m now 10 weeks pregnant and should be feeling over the moon but I’m not. I feel completely overwhelmed and suddenly unable to cope.
I’m really down all the time, I have zero motivation or energy which makes me feel like the worst Mum to my 2 kids. Getting out of bed in the morning feels like climbing Everest, let alone leaving the house. As a result, we’ve been stuck inside most days and I feel like I’m really letting my children down. They have plenty to do in the house but it feels like the TV is constantly on, which makes me feel really guilty and useless.
I don’t know what is making me feel so low, it’s just a vicious circle. I feel rubbish so I struggle to do things and then I feel guilty about struggling to do things which makes me feel rubbish. It doesn’t help that we’ve all had terrible colds lately, I work 3 days a week and I’ve been feeling really sick since about 5 weeks.
All in all, I feel like I’ve fallen down a hole and I have no energy or drive to get out of it. Worse still, I feel like I’m dragging my children down with me.
Sorry for the rambling, I just want to feel a bit less alone.