Feeling detached from my kids

[sunshinelollipopsrainbows]

It's been 4 months since I separated from my husband (my choice) and I have three children aged 6, 4 and 2. I feel so detached from my children right now and I don't fully understand why and feel so guilty. I've been a SAHM for 5 years and I feel like I have no life at all, all I do is drive to school and nursery and do food shopping and I hardly have anyone to talk to day to day. I don't want to play with Playdoh anymore, I don't want to read the same inane books and talk about bloody cars all day long.

The children's dad still sees them a lot, Monday- Weds evenings then has them on a Friday night overnight and brings them back on a Saturday. When he brings them back I kind of feel disappointed that I'm back to the boring drudge but when they're gone I feel lonely and miss them as I just end up on my own usually.

I don't know what to do. How can I feel connected to them? I love them but I just feel so fed up right now too and this isn't what I wanted for them or for me.

Could you be depressed OP? I’d book an appointment with your GP

Sounds like you've been through so so much over the last few months (& I'm guessing beyond that too). Three very young children must be exhausting even when life is uneventful. Sounds like you have the children the majority of the time which must be knackering. Do you have any other support- friends or family nearby? As Jilted mentioned, it might be worth seeing your GP. Regardless of whether or not you are depressed, seeing a counsellor might be helpful.
Try and plan some nice things for yourself, both with and without the kids.
Be easy on yourself. You've been through one of life's most stressful events. And as a mum we are just expected to pick up the pieces and carry on for our children's sake which isn't easy.