I feel so guilty but don’t know if I can change

[NiKiTaCoLlEt]

Hey everyone,

I have a beautiful baby boy who’s 1, I’m suffering with PND, Post Natal anxiety and post natal OCD. My symptoms are manageable now but it’s been so rough. Iv has CBT and learning how to cope with my mental illnesses.

The thing that’s really getting me down is I know have massive mum guilt, I feel like I’ve spent the whole of he’s life battling my mental state and trying to get myself better that has he had the attention he needed!?

Few things I feel guilty about and still so now...

• he wakes up at 5am most mornings so CBeebies goes on and we have sofa cuddles until 7am

• I don’t actively play with him, as in he happily play independently but I don’t get on the play and play.

• there’s been time when he’s ‘due’ his nap but fights sleep and I feel like in force a nap on him because I’m so mentally and physically exhausted.

There’s loads more but the are the main ones. Please tell me I’m not an awful mum.
We do go to baby groups, walks, parks, shopping and swimming during the weeks, it’s the times we are at home that I struggle.
TV makes me feel SO guilty and the not playing with him.

Any input would be great ladies 🧡

Ah he's get all the interaction, stimulation he needs! I used to feel the same about the tv with my first but looking back it's not a problem. I have fond memories now of snuggling while he watches the telly. Enjoy the peace and don't feel guilty sounds like you doing a great job xx

Ladies I don’t suppose you have any idea what this could be. He’s had this on his face for months. Been to doctors so many times and they just say use moisturizer as it’s dry, tried all sorts of cream. It’s not knowing what it is that bothers me. It gets a bit better then flares up like this. It’s dry to touch but looks like it has tiny little blister. Getting fed up with it know it’s been so long. Any idea? X

Thanks chick 🧡

Thanks chick I’ll give that app ago 🧡