hi all, I am not sure if this is the right place to ask for guidance. So we have a 5 year old daughter and we have been TTC for the last 1.5 years, 2 miscarriages later nothing. It's been a very emotional time. In the meantime my DD started school and it ended up being a very poor school which she didn't get on well so we are changing her school to a private school, this is after my 2nd miscarriage. We signed her up, all done , but now I am finding myself wanting to try for a baby one more time but I and my husband looked at our finances and there is no way we can afford 2 kids in private school. I thought I was ok with this as after my 2nd miscarriage, I didn't think I would be wanting to try again. I am finding myself even desperate to TTC , I am 40 years old and there is no time left. You know when you think something with your head, I know that I shouldn't TTC anymore but my heart says something else. I just can't let go. I think I am looking for somewhere I can share my thoughts and if you have anyway out of this situation. I think if it wasn't for money , maybe my husband would have agreed to keep trying, but again he is concerned about my health and what we have been through. any kind words? I mean I can't have one child in private and another in state school. I think the only option for me to concentrate on the family I have and move on. I think I am finding the acceptance very hard at the moment.