Hi everyone,
Would like some real mum advice please, as I'm having a lot of anxiety right now 
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My DH and I have been discussing having a baby for a while as he is really keen to become a dad. I was initially excited at the prospect but much more recently, I have had an enormous amount of stress and worry over the whole experience (pregnancy, birth, newborn stage, toddlers & tantrums and the list goes on!). I have told DH about my worries but I worry that he is becoming tired of hearing the same stuff over and over again. TMI - we started TTC recently but I couldn't go through with the first time as I froze completely
So much of being a parent sounds like hell, with no sleep, being screamed at, arguments over every single thing. I do enjoy being around my nephews and nieces but of course, the advantage is being able to give them back when things get difficult! Lots of people give me the 'oh it's so different when it's your own' but I also worry that I won't love my child after birth, and resent this 'bundle of joy' taking over my life. I love being with my DH and he is the best thing in my life - I don't want that to end by being endlessly knackered and barely able to function and appreciate each other.
I feel so disgusted and angry at myself, as this stage in my life should be a happy time...surely? I also feel sorry for my DH as I sometimes feel like he should be with someone who is elated about the whole experience . Has anyone else felt like this before their first time?