Do you ever regret becoming a parent?

[Gleyma99]

Just feeling low at the moment. I have 2 DC, DS13 with OCD which has been particularly difficult to handle for the last months and a DD3 who has always been a handful since birth, very willful and independent.

Myself just turned 43, working full time and am not getting any younger, DH is a good man and lovely dad but the day-to-day stuff and mental load has always fallen more on me. I try to do stuff for myself, but the DC have been so draining and time-consuming lately.

I don't know really why I am posting, it just seems like the good, rewarding moments with the kids are just so few and far in between. I sometimes fantasize about getting on a plane and going to a hotel for a month, just me and wine and books...sometimes I wish I never had them, but I still love them...its such a frustrating feeling. I love my children with all my heart but I dont love the mundane parenting so much, if you see what i mean?

I know the difficult times will past but it is so hard, when you are right in the middle.

Anyone else that have had this feeling? I feel like such a horrible person sometimes :(

You're not a horrible person, I'm sure you're a lovely mum.

Parenting isn't all sunshine and lollipops - it's gruelling at times and I'm willing to bet there isn't a parent on the planet who hasn't, at one time or another, thrown their hands in the air and wondered what the hell they were thinking,

You're totally normal

Thanks Twaddle, I guess I am just in a bad place at the moment. It will get better I know :)

I have a 5 week old and have had “what the hell have I done....!” Thoughts when I’ve been really low. I think it’s normal not to feel like it’s a dream!! My daughters so young but I’ve alreasy had those thoughts. I’m sure they will keep coming back. Like you say you love them, but it is hard!