Can everyone please be gentle, I'm feeling sensitive at the moment.
Don't really know where to start with this but quite frankly I feel like my life is just crap at the moment, my DD has just turned one and I suspect I am pregnant with no 2, due to feeling exactly like I did with DD1, I have irregular periods as well so not sure how late I am, boyfriend doesn't want another baby but I'm not opposed to the idea and wanted more children in the future, so I am stressed about this.
Being a young mum means that I just wanted to move out of my mums house and have ended up in a two bed maisonette, every time I get home I have to lug the pram, bags, baby up for flights of stairs, I'm also in a council estate that I don't like, lots of mums constantly screaming at their kids, drug dealers and weed growths are in most of the houses, my landlord won't get in touch with me so I can't get on the transfer list and I can't find a single private landlord who will accept DSS which I'm finding frustrating as just because I'm universal credit clearly means I'm going to wreck the property and not pay my rent on time.
My boyfriend has also just announced his band have been signed to a tour and he will be touring Germany, Berlin, Italy and France for a whole month which is an amazing opportunity and I'm so happy for him but wonder how I'm going to cope, I'm quite isolated in my flat and feel like I'll spend a whole month wholed up there alone with my baby as both my mother and MIL work 9-5 Monday to Friday, I also don't have a lot of money and I don't drive so can't just get in the car and go somewhere.
I also am struggling to find a job in the career I want, and to be honest just feel so down and mopey and not really sure how to pick myself up, just looking for some support, and a vent. Thanks xx