I feel completely at a loss with DD. For about 60% of the day she's crying or throwing a tantrum. Sometimes it's normal e.g she's tired or something hasn't gone right but other times it's completely out of nowhere. She'll just start screaming and will go round the room throwing her toys, she goes to the cupboards to try and open them to throw things (we have child locks now) she'll hit everyone, throw herself on the floor or go and hit her head on the wall then screams even more. I know it's normal for toddlers to tantrum, scream and hit but this feels like it's a lot more than normal. She's really bad with dsd (12yrs) she will be happy to see her then just always goes up to her and hits her in the face, even when she asks dsd to play with her, dsd will sit down and dd will just scream at her and hit her, we tell her no and that it's not nice which makes her worse, dsd has just tried ignoring it or just getting up and walking off but nothing seems to work. We're on our first family holiday and I'm on the balcony in tears because I hate it.
I have been diagnosed with pnd and anxiety and am on tablets for it but I don't feel any different so I don't k ow if things seem worse because of this? I feel awful saying this but I love dd, I just don't like my life with her, I don't enjoy being round her. I'm sorry if I'm waffling I just feel I've got no one to talk to, everyone just tries to reassure me that I'm a good mum and I know they're just trying to help but sometimes I don't want to hear that, I just want to cry at someone and not feel judged for feeling like I do!