so sorry youre feeling so low, i really recommend this course. it will help you understand your daughters behaviour, which is perfectly normal, shes not playing up for you, shes just more secure in your relationship which means you see all the tiredness and the grumpiness, the excitement of others is often enough to behave differently. remember, shes still a baby, sleeping through is amazing, many children wake early, and i know it can be really hard if you are not naturally early risers but it is something you will probably need to find ways around. definitely take turns for a lie in at the weekend. also i do completely sympathise with the illness, i was diagnosed with fibromyalgia last September and have a gut issue called gastroparesis i was diagnosed with in November, both cause a lot of pain, and fatigue is a big part of fibro too. it has been the toughest year, at one point i had several hospital stays, it is simply bloody hard being ill and caring for children. my daughters 6 now and it was still unbearable. and the worst part is the place you are now where you don't have any diagnosis. things will get easier, they will feel more manageable when you know what youre dealing with and can be proactive about what will help you, but one things for sure, you need to prioritise. your house doesn't matter, priotritise the relationships. ok, house having a basic level of cleanliness, and everyone putting away behind themselves so it isn't trip over and hurt yourself messy, but, trying to let go of some expectations regarding house will help you. acceptoing that right now, you cannot be what you are because you are not well and second to that you have a small child. one of those things is enough to make household chores hard, two means re-envisaging what is most important. enlist help too. anyone, family, friends, now is the time to ask, say it like it is, im struggling, im not well, i need some help. a friend of mine recently posted on fb something similar and she was overwhelmed by the response, people genuinely wanted to help. soe people dropped off food, someone did her ironing for a few weeks, someone else sat with the kids so she could sleep. if you can pay for a cleaner or similar, then do so. the other thing is organisation and planning. this helps me big time. hubby prepares lunches the night before. if its a bad day then lunch is sorted. some weekends we batch cook stuff, this means theres always something for nights hes home late or im really not well. when i was at my worst i arranged a play date with a good friend at ours once a week, so i had company, and so i had someone to help just a little. what im saying is its hard to change a childs behaviour because how shes behaving is developmentally appropriate, but you can change the environment, and change your mindset about it, and those things will relieve stress. sit and think how could i make my home life easier? i also found planning activities, having a big bundle of books by the sofa, things like that meant i had a tool to reconnect with my daughter and diffuse frustrations. she also watched much more tv than id have liked but i accepted i needed that, and i just tried within the day to make sure it was broken up, eg, putting on music so she cpould dance around, throwing cushions on the floor for her to climb over. bought her a wobble board so she had something a bit more physical for inside. at this point i was pretty much bed bound, i came down to the sofa and struggled around just to meet her needs, i did nothing else. i did get better, not cured, but i got through that worst patch and im doing well now. if you want to know anything about what helped me im happy to chat. hope some of this was useful .
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