I'm mum to an adorable 8month old. He is a wonderful baby and I love spending time with him
The problem is, now it's 1030 on Sunday night, that I don't feel like I've enjoyed the weekend at all, despite having had lovely social occasions on both days.
I don't feel like myself. I feel as if I have one foot in the world of parenting and one tentatively stepping back into the world of socialising. When I'm away from my BF baby, I feel like I just want to rush back to him, then I feel embarrassed and spend a while trying to unsuccessfully immerse myself in my social group (I dont leave him that often and always with loving DH).
It's hard to explain... I just plan his days carefully in terms of feeding and naps to make sure he's had enough of both while fitting around our schedules. I pack his bag for every eventuality when leaving him with DH for the day. I prepare his food. What I SHOULD do is just walk out the door and enjoy myself but I can't, I just can't let go. So leaving him becomes stressful and once I'm away it's also mildly stressful.
DH and I are successfully sharing parenting so we both get time off but I feel like while DH truly enjoys his time socialising (as he should), I do not. It's an ordeal. Piled on top of this is the social paranoia that I'm boring and having nothing to contribute.
Oh what I mess I am! I think my hormones are all over the place and period is around the corner.
Has anyone felt like this??!