I feel like i already know the answer to this but I wanted to get other peoples thoughts too.
My son is 6 and i have worked full time commuting to the city (about an hour from home) since i went back to work after maternity leave.
I did get a local job for a brief period when he started school so i was around to drop him to school and a child minder collected him, but i hated it and returned to the city about a year ago. Anyway ever since this change my son has got gradually worse in behavior at school, the child minders and really with anyone looking after him except me (nan etc). To the point now where my childminder has text to say she is terminating his contract in 3 weeks as when he has a meltdown he will just scream and scream to the point where neighbors and other parents are complaining. He doesn't do this with me but i have heard him when people have phoned me when he is doing it to get me to calm him down.
I have felt for the last few months that he needs me to be there and i'm not doing the best thing for him. This is kind of just the point where it has all came to head.
Anyway I have looked at childminders and there are none that can have him as they are full. He also has said that he doesn't want to go to a new childminder and he didn't realise he was being that bad to never go back, which obviously upset him and me :(. He has been with his current childminder since a baby.
I know in my heart that i need to go part time and be there for the school pick up and drop offs as he just isn't coping anymore and he will only behave if i am there.
BUT obviously money... debt.... bills and everything else is making me torn. I'm a single parent and i just don’t know what to do.
I have been so upset as I’m so torn as i want to be the parent he needs me to be but don’t know if i can do it financially and its really getting me down.
How would you deal with this, i have been looking online at work from home jobs and I’m going to start applying but obviously I only have 3 more weeks of childcare.