I don’t know why I’m posting on here, other than to rant I’m afraid. My husband and I have been together nearly twenty years and married for 12. We have four children aged 8yrs, 5yrs, 15months and 11weeks. I feel like I’m raising the children alone. He works. Often 11-12hr days. I get that it’s tiring but so is looking after four children. I deal with everything during the night, and at weekends he says he needs to get a break from work so I still do the night feeding. He has every Saturday out at football. Usually til the early hours of Sunday, then won’t get out of bed on Sunday.
Money is a big issue, we’re broke so I’ve been working Sunday mornings since our youngest was four weeks old. But he won’t get out of bed and I worry about leaving the children. This morning I flipped and chucked a glass of water over his head while he was sleeping. It was the third drinking session this week. Although he pays the bills (mortgage etc) he says there is not enough left to give me anything, so the only way I have any (including buying clothes etc for the kids, paying for anything that isn’t covered by the direct debits) is to try earn a bit on Sundays. But I don’t get how he can then go out with his mates 2-3times a week.
I feel like a nag. I’m tired. I get about two hours every few weeks to do something without the children in tow. He says im unreasonable. That he works hard for his money and I should be grateful he pays the bills. That he should be allowed some down time. We have talked sooo many times. We’ve separated twice in the past year. Ultimately it’s the children who suffer. I can only come down to the conclusion I need to suck it up and realise I need to accept my life is just to raise the kids now. But I feel so resentful.