Going back to work :(

[Chloeeee]

I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this but here goes ..
I have 2 amazing daughters .. one is 3 (near enough) and my youngest is 7 months old.. and the thought of leaving then to go back to work is making me feel so sad!
I had a job interview today for full time work and although it went well I've come out feeling really negative and upset.
I feel really guilty that I haven't made the most of my time with my girls and that I've basically failed them.. I don't know why as I know in a good mum and they don't want for anything but I feel like leaving them to continue a career is selfish of me.
I'll miss them.. in fact I miss them already and I haven't even got the job.. and there sat with me right now! Is it normal too feel like this or is there something wrong with me?
I feel so silly x

There is absolutely nothing wrong with you . I went back to work when my DD was 9 months old. I got offered a job I would have been stupid to refuse whilst on mat leave so that gave me a bit of motivation.

The first two weeks were awful, all I could think about all day was what my LO was up to and how odd I felt without her with me.

Fast forward 6 months and I am having the time of my life! I quickly realised that I could have a brew and some dinner in peace, I could pee without a little observer, I could have some time away and the time I do spend with DD is so much more precious. When she is Having a grumpy day it doesn't bother me because my week has variety and not a constant day in day out stream of constant baby interaction.

Another plus is I can afford nicer things for us both with the cash flow of me working.

I suppose childcare is important and as long as you are happy with your LOs childcare setting it does make the transition easier.
For me, my DM has her on a Tuesday, DP on a Wednesday and childminder for the remaining 3 days. She loves spending time in each of these settings which of course makes me feel better about leaving her.

It does get easier I promise

All sounds perfectly normal I went back to work when mine were similar ages and felt like you but it does get easier, I really enjoy going to work now it took time but it will be ok.

Mine are now 8 & 10 and it is easier, but they still need care and I still feel guilty when I work until 8pm but they understand why I need to do it. Also I love being me at work.

Just out of interest what are you doing with your girls whilst you work?

I feel so silly just after I posted this I had a call to say I wasn't successful! Lol I was a but upset at first but it's fine it's just brought me back to reality that I have to go back at some point. I feel all over the place now.. I didn't want the job but now I can't have it I want It! Lol what a rollercoaster. It's good to know it will get easier thank you xx