she never does this!!!
I was a bit dubious cos I don't know them very well (complicated but dh trusts them, god i hope so and suggested them) then dd was crying, clinging and begging me not to go (my one evening at work, dh at a funeral). But i went anyway.
makes me feel absoutrely shite and wish i'd not come to work tonight
she's 4 in 2 weeks btw.
i know this doesn't make much sense but i feel a bit rubbish and wanted to let it out. feel like i have let her down.