I'm 9 months into motherhood and as time goes on I'm realising more and more that I'm not sure who I am anymore.
I was really unwell during pregnancy and put on a fair bit of weight. After a traumatic birth and months of therapy I'm in a better place regarding what happened but this new version of me is so far from the old version that I just feel lost. I know I could lose the weight I've put on if I put my mind to it but I'm scared that it will just lead to more issues as I know my body won't ever go back to how it once was.
I've lost so much confidence that I don't really go out to baby groups or classes and won't go out without my baby.
I hate photos of myself now and as a result there are hardly any of me with my baby which just makes me so sad.
I know I'm a mum and a wife but I'm not me anymore.
I hope this makes sense to someone out there.
Did anyone out there go through similar? How did you find yourself again?
xx