I generally feel okay. Maybe a bit tired but I have two boys aged 2.5yrs and 5m. My youngest has only just started sleeping a bit better.
I don't really feel a bond with my youngest. I care for him, cuddle him when he cries but I just don't feel the same overwhelming love that I do for my oldest. Being honest sometimes I feel like my youngest has came along and ruined everything, even though he was planned and very much wanted.
I never want to be without him and I know things will get easier (or more manageable) as he gets bigger and settles in to the family more.
It's just a feeling I have. I don't feel overly down. I do feel life is a bit boring and repetitive at times - but that's kind of normal I'd imagine with a small child. I do make a point of going out every morning so my eldest can get out in the fresh air and I visit family etc and enjoy this.
I have great support. My husband is fantastic and family live quite close.
I just feel guilty and such a horrible person. I know I love him. I never want to be without him. But I want to bond and love him so much I cry. I want to love him like I love my first born but it's not happened yet.
I've already been to GP and going back tomorrow too. Just not sure what to think.