Bad mum

[JanJan71]

Totally lost it with my 6year old son earlier. I have another son aged 5 and a daughter 31 months.
Driving me mad all morning. The 2 boys that is screaming, shouting and just being boys! Been trying to get out of the house for it seems 2 hours...asked them at least 30 times to put their clothes on. I dressed one of them as fed up waiting. Dressed my daughter obviously. Came to lunchtime and still not out so decided to feed them all first...then the 6 year old said it was poo and I said what did you say and said the lunch was poo...so I put the plate of food in his face first he thought it was funny and then he saw I wasn't joking and started crying I was livid!! He was screaming... then I thought what was I doing??
I hugged him, cleaned him and said I was sorry! My other son was trying to protect him saying why did I do that and that was naughty!
I'm so mortified at what I done :(
I rang my husband at work and asked him to come home from work and he did...I said I was losing it and needed help!
He was home in the hour !

He understood he said and that lack of sleep the last few weeks! 2 kids have had chicken pox and colds... but that no excuse to be a shit to my kids??

Feel absolutely terrible...
My poor baby boy said he wants a new mummy!! and I don't blame him!

You squashed the food In his face?

I do understand your stress definitely, my kids have driven me crazy. It's awful but I'm trying to assert better boundaries and follow through with time out more etc.

In the last 3 weeks you've had to deal with chicken pox, the boys breaking up from school, loss of routine, Christmas planning, present buying, wrapping, a little one and a dh who is presumably working full time.
Chucking a plate of food isn't in any parenting manual but it's not a capital crime either.

I think you need a day at a spa if you can afford it, or at least a child-free day, maybe a night away and a lie-in. And cake.

In 10 years this will be a family Xmas story- do you remember when mum threw that food.....

Forgot it and move on, don't dwell, we've all done something we regret. I was getting so wound up one day getting ds ready he screamed at me and I screamed back and he was terrified. Don't over compensate, suck it up, move on, your a great mum x

My dad once pushed my face into a plate of spaghetti Bol. He’s one of the most mild men whose genuinely lovely. Very out of character and the tomato was a bugger to get off my skin. Don’t fret. It’s a bad day that’s all.

Thanks all xx