Finding it really hard at the mo. Have almost 3 year old, and a 3 month old baby. Baby was in hospital extremely poorly first month after birth and had to have major surgery at one week old. She's doing well now, but I find it really challenging managing my extremely spirited and very demanding toddler while meeting baby's needs. I want to be compassionate and patient with my toddler, I know it's been a lot for him to go through too, but I find it so hard not to get irritable with him. He's defiant and so shouty so much of the time. I wish I had some more one to one with him, but it's really hard with breastfeeding baby. During term time he goes to preschool 3x a week, but we're now in 3 week break and I feel like crying a lot of the time, it's so hard, and the house is insanely messy ALL the time. DH helps where he can, especially with toddler, but he is also incredibly messy. Hoping it'll get better!