I give up

[Aimeex]

I give up trying to be a good mum to my little girl.
No matter what I do or how hard I try there's always something in my head telling me bad thoughts.
Telling me my child is ugly and that life would be better off without her? I'm fighting a loosing battle. I then tell myself I DO NOT think this. My head is literally telling me so many bad things.
I try and comfort her and it doesn't work. She hates me

How old is she?
If your head is telling you bad things you need RL help. Midwife? GP?

Do you have Amy family or friends who could offer support? I'd book an appointment with the GP

Have you always had these thoughts? Or could you possibly link it to a time when they started?

Sorry for all the questions

How are you feeling today?

Book an appointment with your GP. Doesn’t sound good at all.
I’m no doctor but you sound depressed or maybe post natal depression. How old is your LO?
Have you any family or friends that can help you with your child or child’s father that can help?
Can you remember what/when this started happening?

This really does sound like post natal depression OP.

I had similar feelings when I had my DS. Convinced he hated me, I was an awful mother and everyone around me was judging me constantly.

My DS is now 13 and my reason for living...my best friend! He is happy and well adjusted (no permanent damage from my shitty start at being a mum).

See your GP, talk to family and seek support wherever you can. It does get better though...I promise

Are you the same poster who has posted before about their baby not being ‘cute’?
You really really need to see your Dr, or talk to your HV.