and I'm dreading it
my DS is one. I am going back two days initially then increasing to three. My sister is having him one day then in laws another. He still BFs and we co-sleep. He only naps in the pram as I like to be out and about and in the fresh air.
I have honestly loved looking after him full-time and if we could afford it I'd be a SAHM.
It hadn't really sunk in that I was going back until today because we are close to moving house and it was all up in the air whether we would move next week and I'd take more holiday etc but it's now looking like a few more weeks and I feel like my heart is breaking. He has had half days with the people who will be looking after him, I am just SO worried he will be inconsolable at times, he does scream/cry quite loudly - even my inlaws said he was loud and they have 5 grand children! I hate the thought that I'm not going to be there to comfort him. Also I'm worried about his naps and whether he will nap for them.
Does it get easier? When we move I will be looking for a nursery one or two days a week as my sister looking after him won't be long-term. I feel so down about it. Sorry this is so long.