I feel so awful writing this. I love my DS aged 4 dearly, but my god he annoys me something chronic. We have been away for a long family weekend away and got back today. All weekend his behaviour has been diabolical, mainly due to lack of sleep in a new place.
I see other families enjoying lovely days out and I feel so envious because DS constantly has to be told not to walk on the road/don't touch that/stop spitting. It's exhausting and I'm not sure where I went wrong.
If I have a day off we can't spend more than an hour in the house before he's climbing the walls, and it's not for lack of things to do.
But when I take him somewhere, he can't behave.
I'm constantly exhausted because he still doesn't sleep well on a night, and we have said definitely no more children. I'm so tired that I find everything he does annoying.
I just want to enjoy being a mum and I feel terrible for DS, like I've failed him. 