That's it really.
Stuck at home with two kids, DH is at football and meal. I am aiming for the worst parent of the year award. It's pissing it down.
I sometimes think I wish I had taken a completely different course in my life choices.
I need therapeutic help, my DH says everything I do is normal 'everyone' is doing it.
Nothing abusive don't worry, just the usual merry go round of asking them not/too do something, being ignored, and it eventually leading me to shouting at them. They fight all the time. My DS is being very 'independent' and 'strong spirited' .
But I hate it. I want it to change. It's like we are 'stuck' in certain roles and reactions and I know that to come out of it I have to change. And I've tried, really, really tried. But it's like I go to default position every fucking time.
I also feel like I am doing it mostly by my own. My DH works long hours because he earns the most. But for example I've taken all of Half term to cover childcare. There is no discussion about this. Just assumptions that I will do this. But if I tell him I feel like this it leads to an argument.
Seriously am I the only one who is just so fucking fed up with being a parent