I always wanted a big family if I was lucky enough. But having had 2 kids I found it much harder than I thought - I struggled with PND and felt very lonely for a long time. But that passed. DH always only ever wanted two so I happily accepted this would be our family unit. Recently I've not felt quite right, so I did a pregnancy test to rule that out (I am on a very effective contraception so it was doubtful buy say,proms were similar) as it resembled how things felt when I conceived. But when it was negative, I felt a definite twinge of disappointment and now that feels it's niggling at me. DH is resolute on no more kids so I haven't talked about this as I'm wondering if it will pass, but it's on my mind at the moment. I am 37 so not getting any younger, and my eldest starts school next year.
Has anyone else had this and is it a phase?!