Hi ladies,
I'm struggling a lot with this so please bear with me.
About 18 months ago my daughter went to live with my mum and dad for a while. I suffer from depression and was struggling badly to look after myself let alone my daughter. I had my little boy at home, my partner and I was pregnant. My mum and dad kindly offered to take her for a while just while I sorted my head out. It was about 4 months later that my daughter who's 6 decided she wanted to go to live with her dad. Her dad gave up his job and took over, fast forward to now and I feel worthless as her mother. I've been attending counselling and I'm still trying to get my head around my little girl not being with me full time. I can't begin to describe the guilt I feel every day thinking I've fucked her up already and she's not even started living her life yet. I hate myself for it, I really don't think I can cope with it much longer.