So I'm a SAHM ( not by choice but because childcare would cost too much and would be pointless me paying just to work with very little left over to financially benefit us. I have no friends or family to help me with childcare and my husband shifts don't allow us to work around each other so I feel I just have to accept life for what it is.
I'm sick of having to be the one that stays at home just because I'm a woman. I won't get paid as much as my husband does now so we will lose massive amounts! The thing that gets me is the amount of allowances that can be made on the work place for woman but not for men who have SAH. I've seen it in my husbands work place. My husband has to work shifts based on the needs of the company and has to work every Monday and Wednesday without fail because of the things that need doing those days but others don't have the same demands and can have a 'say' whether they can work those days or not even tho they have the same job title. My husband said he works these days because otherwise things wouldn't get done properly so it's like he's the manager when he's not!
I'm the one left with no opportunities to go back to work. I absolutely hate being a SAHM. I love my kids but I hate it because I'm sick of being looked down on and seen as 'lazy' for staying at home. I hate the mundane life it brings where I have no social life, no career, no income of my own, no satisfaction that You get from a job. Because I'm seen as not being entitled to these things because I don't work whereas my husband works so he deserves to go out with his
Friends and to the gym because he works hard and earns the money.
Like as well, My husband booked his holidays off work with work in advance. He had booked a week off this Aug because it's the summer holidays but he had to change his week because a lady needed it off instead because of a last minute family holiday. So my husband swapped her Holiday week and I didn't even get a say in it! We didn't have any holiday planned ( as we can't afford one just yet) but it's not the point is it! Why should her needs some first because she works.. not as if she needed it off because of childcare issues is it, it was due to a holiday. My husband had his 'swapped' week off last week but it's not the point because now I have 3-4 weeks with the kids whilst he's working so not much of a break between the weeks now he's had to swap.
I don't know if I'm just feeling resentful and ranting about pointless stuff but I just feel so down and isolated. I don't regret having kids but I didn't have a support network had had shit parents so ended up in this path! I envy all those who had great parents and guided them i the right direction
Rant over